Motivate the inner ear...

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 20:00:59 GMT

In 72 hours I this existence will fade away and I will assume a new one. Scroll down and read the friends only post. If you can't see the friends only post, you weren't ment to.

I know you!

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 21:24:26 GMT

Anonymous posters are like cheese doodles...They are fun to masturbate with :) :) :)

time for calling

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 21:18:30 GMT

Hey kids, Log In please. It's a Friends only post.

tell me what you think kids...

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 10:11:11 GMT

This is why Rushdie is a Genious
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It was so it was not in a time long forgot
Well, anyway goes something like this
I can't be sure because when they came to call I wasn't myself no yaar
not my self at all some days are hard how to tell you what sickness is like
something like this but I can't be sure
Always one part of me is standing outside screaming no please don't no
but it does no good you see when the sickness comes
I am the angel the god damned angel of god and these days it's the
avenging angel Gibreel the avenger always vengeance why
I can't be sure something like this for the crime of being human
especially female but not exclusively people must pay
Something like that
So he brought her along he meant no harm I know that now he just wanted
us to be together caca can't you see he said she isn't ohoh over you not by
a longshot and you he said still crazy fofor her everyone knows all he
wanted was for us to be to be to be
But I heard verses
You get me Spoono
V e r s e s
Rosy apple lemon tart Sis boom bah
I like coffee I like tea
Violets are blue roses are red remember me when I am
dead dead dead
That type of thing
Couldn't get them out of my nut and she changed in front of my eyes I
called her names whore like that and him I knew about him
Sisodia lecher from somewhere I knew what they were up to
laughing at me in my own home something like that
I like butter I like toast
Verses Spoono who do you think makes such damn things up
So I called down the wrath of God I pointed my finger I shot him in the
heart but she bitch I thought bitch cool as ice
stood and waited just waited and then I don't know I can't be sure we
weren't alone
Something like this
Rekha was there floating on her carpet you remember her Spoono
you remember Rekha on her carpet when we fell and someone else mad
looking guy Scottish get-up gora type
didn't catch the name
She saw them or she didn't see them I can't be sure she just stood
there
It was Rekha's idea take her upstairs summit of Everest once you've
been there the only way is down
I pointed my finger at her we went up
I didn't push her
Rekha pushed her
I wouldn't have pushed her
Spoono
Understand me Spoono
Bloody hell
I loved that girl.

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 09:26:53 GMT

Orangecat, are you from Metamorphose or the Dark Side?

the contest winner..

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 09:12:20 GMT

The Problem with Newtonian Physics

Maybe we're all just one big moment
one big maw of raw potential and endless probabilities
piercing the eyelids and heading straight towards the cerebral cortex
in hopes of finding something down there in the dark dank basement of the psyche.
Yeah...that must be it
something, somewhere --I can feel it in my quarks.
Its that shudder/goose bump thing you do when the toes curl up
and I hear you howl at the moon like a dog.
And maybe this time, time isn't the answer
for we both know that time never resolved any disassociate train of thought
and time never made anything better
especially not for us.
From mechanics to fractals, from icecream to god
where the blind passion can both kill and concieve in a single brush stroke of the young artists hands.
Emerging, submerging, illusively still
just one moment where I can love you, undress you, hold you, make you mine
just one second where we can transcend this skin and become one with the skies
just one moment where we can be for now, and then, and ever still
just one second please. </b>

The question of the evening...

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 04:28:55 GMT

Tyrel, why do you hate me? It doesn't bother me except I know that that you appear to abhor everything about me yet read my LJ....

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 18:22:28 GMT

I am so psyched right now, the mail just came I and won the poetry contest!!!! *does a dance around the world* I'm so happy right now I could hug pastor stone!

BLOOD DRINK FUCK FUCK!!!

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 22:31:35 GMT

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I almost creamed my pants today when I found the site for Revolver1010 Today during Photography. I was so happy I almost didn't notice the transexual named Miss Liden we had for a substitute....

LOOOONG SURVEY

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 00:51:25 GMT

Your full name:: David Benjamin Haddad
Age:: 17
Height:: 5'7"
Natural hair colour:: Brown
Eye colour:: Hazel
Number of siblings:: 4
Glasses/contacts?:: nope
Piercings:: 1
Tattoos:: nope
Braces?:: never
FAVOURITE
Colour:: all
Band:: The Cruxshadows
Song:: Binary Soul, Cruelty, Aten-ra
Stuffed animal:: Dittle
Video game:: Zelda: Ocarina of time
TV show:: CSI or something of the like
Movie:: The Rules of Attraction
Book:: Glamour and Damnation - Regent St. Claire, The Satanic Verses - Salman Rushdie, The Death of Vishnu - ?
Food:: Baqlawa
Game on a cell phone:: picture fone in the lockeroom...*grins*
CD cover:: ?
Flower:: none
Scent:: Axe,
Animal:: none
Comic book:: Candy Apple Black
Cereal:: Granola
Website:: seancody.com
Cartoon:: none
DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: sadly no
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: No
Like to sing?:: yes but I'm horrible
Have a job?:: nope
Have a cell phone?:: nope
Like to play sports?:: Soccer, get the str8 man's underpants
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: nope
Have a crush on someone?:: Indeed
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: no, just lil ole' me in Lucyville
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?::no
Have any special talents/skills?:: Double Jointed, can memorize anything, social engineering
Excercise daily?:: yes
Like school?:: I love it!
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: nope
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: Yes
Speak any other languages?:: yes a wee bit of: Spanish, German, Arabic
Go a day without food?:: yes
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: Yes
Read music, not just tabs?:: Hell, I can't even read tabs
Roll your tongue?:: ???
Eat a whole pizza?:: Yes *mmm good*
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Yes
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yes
Gotten lost in your city?:: Yes
Seen a shooting star?:: Yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: Canada
Had a serious surgery?:: no
Stolen something important to someone else?:: yes
Solved a rubiks cube?:: no *shakes fist in the air*
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: Yes
Cried over a girl?:: yes
Cried over a boy?:: Yes
Kissed a random stranger?:: no
Hugged a random stranger?:: Yes
Been in a fist fight?:: No
Been arrested?:: yes
Done drugs?:: Yes
Had alcohol?:: Yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: Yes
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: no
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: Yes
Swore at your parents?:: Yes
Been to warped tour?:: yes
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: yes
Been in love?:: no
Been close to love?:: Yes
Been to a casino?:: No
Ran over an animal and killed it?::does putting a frog in the road so it will get hit by a semi count?
Broken a bone?:: yes
Gotten stitches?:: yes
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: No
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: yes
Made homemade muffins?:: Yes
Bitten someone?:: Yes
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: no
More than 5 times?:: No
Been to niagra falls?:: Yes
Burped in someones face?:: yes
Gotten the chicken pox?:: No
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: This morning
Went to the bathroom:: 6:15
Saw a movie in theaters:: Finding Nemo
Read a book:: a couple weeks ago
Had a snow day:: Febuary
Had a party:: never
Had a slumber party:: never
Made fun of someone:: 10 mins ago
Tripped in front of someone:: yesterday
Went to the grocery store:: ?
Got sick:: I still am sick
Cursed:: just now
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: Cheese
Black/white:: Queen Latifa
Lights on/lights off:: Watermelon
TV/movie:: Either
Car/truck:: Naked
Body spray/lotion:: Axe
Cash/check:: Ca$h
Pillows/blankets:: Naked
Headache/stomach ache:: Erectile Dysfunction
Paint/charcoal:: Lesbians
Chinese food/mexican food:: Boriqua
Summer/winter:: Pepsi
Snow/rain:: Naked
Fog/misty:: Boxers
Rock/rap:: RAp...yo yo yo muh niggas!
Meat/vegetarian:: Cheese
Boy/girl:: Intersexed
Chocolate/vanilla:: Twist
Sprinkles/icing:: Naked
Cake/pie:: Penis
French toast/french fries:: oatmeal
Strawberries/blueberries:: Botswana
Ocean/swimming pool:: Orthadox Jewish Diamond Smugglers
Hugs/kisses:: Sex
Cookies/muffins:: Peanuts
p33n/bewbz:: 31337
Wallet/pocket:: Panties
Window/door:: Barbell
Emo/goth:: EBM
Pink/purple:: Oprah
Cat/dog:: HIV+
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: 802.11G
Pants/shorts:: Panties
Winter break/spring break:: Naked!!!!
Spring/autumn:: Yahoo
Clouds/clear sky:: Mandelbrot
Moon/mars:: Jesus
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: 3? 2? 1?
What are their names?:: Oprah Winfrey, Queen Latifa, Rikki Lake, Rosey O'Donnel, Montel Williams, Cher, Dexter(from Dextors labratories), Rabbi Rosenberg, and Frank Sinatra.
Do you have a best friend?:: yes....Latifa baby will you scratch muh back?
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: Yes
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: I don't know
Have you ever lost a friend?:: Yes
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: Yes
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: SI, viva cunado, do you like to march?, quack!, honk honk!, mama melo puneta, I put the "K" in taco, God, Little Red Riding Queer, Little miss Cunt on the Rag, Madem X, "She", ....must I go on?
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: No, I don't fight with friends
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: I'm not a nice one
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: Ashley bought mez clothes when I was at the safehouse *hugs*
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: Yes
What friend have you known the longest?:: Mark
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: YesIf so, what is it?:: your mother and I was titty fucking and I felt like such an ass making your dad sit there and watch us masturbating all by himself...
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: Not often, one is married, one is in Cali, one if hiding from her vampire stalker
Do any of your friends drive?:: Yes
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: Yes: Kyle Spaulding, fuck school systems, they need to have difibulators on hand and not let kids with heart conditions fucking play basketball.
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: Broke every window in his neighbors house
What do you think your friends think of you?:: *shrug* I'm clingy
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: Yes
If you have, with who?:: Tyler, Erin, Hannah, Kym, Dan, Melody
Are you single?:: yes
Are you in a relationship?:: no...well kinda lol
If so, for how long?:: umm...I don't know
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: No, ugly and fat people should be alone. There only place in the world is to proliferate the food industry and make scientific discoveries.
What is your idea of the best date?:: Actually talking to Tyler :)
What was your first kiss like?:: que magnifique! I kissed Kym up and down her arm like I was french!
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: 10<
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: yes
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: This one time with this asian bitch with big tits....lol, actually the talks Erin and I used to have on my porch swing
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: Yes
Have you ever been dumped?:: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?:: Yes
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: Sexual intercourse
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers:: NAKED!
Hat:: Versacci
Hard:: Viagra
Free:: Exist
Space:: Naked
Taste:: Pepsi
Good charlotte:: ?
Red:: Blue
Deep:: red
Heart:: aorta
Cord:: phone
Cheese:: eat me!
Rain:: pensive
Work:: fun
Pedal:: motorcycle
Head:: thought
Bed:: fuck
Fluff:: porn,
Hardcore:: Industrial
Race:: Human
Knife:: cut
Jump:: dance
I....
am:: nothing
want:: you to fuck me
need:: you to die
crave:: your corpse
love:: everything
hate:: everything
did:: nothing
feel:: ambivalent
miss:: living
am annoyed by:: sex
would rather:: be fucking
am tired of:: lives
will always:: naked
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: IDM or EBM
What time is it now?:: 8:48
What day is it?:: Thursday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: yesterday
How much money do you have right now?:: $50
Are you hungry?:: No
Whatcha doin?:: nothing
Do you like parades?:: No
Do you like the moon?:: no
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: home
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: naked
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:self oblivion
Have you ever had a picnic?:: Yes
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: No
What about sock em boppers?:: no
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: No
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: yes
pretty?:: no|yes
sarcastic?:: yes
lazy?:: Yes
hyper?:: Des
friendly?:: yes
evil?:: Yes
smart?:: Uber
strong?:: 7es
talented?:: yes
dorky?:: yes
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:: Elzbeth
skip:: Mary
dance:: Me
lonely:: Me
pen:: *shurg8
flower:: Alex
window:: Courtney
psycho:: Melody
brain freeze:: Jolene
orange:: Tyler
sassy:: Toya
jelly:: Mom
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: For
love:: For
drunk drivers:: for
airplanes:: For
war:: for
canada:: For
united states:: for
rock music:: For
gay marriage:: for
school:: For
surveys:: for
parents:: for
cars:: for
killing:: for
britney spears:: for
coffee:: For
pants:: For
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: Yes
Play strip poker?:: Yes
Run away?:: Yes
Curse at a teacher?:: yes
Not take a shower for a week?:: yes
Ask someone out?:: Yes
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: yes
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: Yes
Go scuba diving?:: yes
Write a book?:: Yes
Become a rockstar?:: yes
Have casual sex?:: yes
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: *shrug*
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: This afternoon
What kind of computer do you have?:: shity one
What grade are you in?:: junior(highschool)
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: no
Or just make out?:: yes
How many posters do you have in your room?:: 1, Ani's Heart Being Weighed in the Balence
How many cds do you have?:: 50ish?
What time is it now?:: 6:10 Looong survery stolen from Mik

slaps forehead How could I foget the Tibetan Buddhists?!

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 21:15:27 GMT

I went to the Meditation Center last night with Amara, Aaron, Sheridan and Kip. It was koolio although some guy wanted us to pay $80 to go see the Lama that's coming to town, if I had the money...I still wouldn't...

Arab the purple spock (from India)

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 21:09:22 GMT

Headline: Most Traumatizing Moment ever happpened yesterday when I was volenteering and Chris put a Banana flavored condom on a dildo with his mouth.....*head spins like a disco*

In Other News:

I took a picture of my dad for photography and then decided to do some touching up with water colors. I drew on red 3-D glasses and gave him pointy ears then colored his shirt purple and the background is orange, it's fucking awesome. I'll post it when I get to a scanner.

Found out some koolio shit on Fractal Music that I want to work on with Jeremy. I really like f/1 and Cantor. You could
make some crazy IDM with it. If anyone can help me with math I will sleep with you.

*Still quivering in anticipation to find out whether I won the poetry contest or not* Prize is $125, one of the teachers at school today came up to me and said they loved my poem but I don't know how he got a hold of it *scratches head*. I submitted The Problem with Newtonian Physics

~ComIcA:
If George Gordon was still alive today we would fuck every day. *pet pet muh babies*

But my heart's Indian for all that :) ~Dictionary.com

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 20:14:59 GMT

vivisection
n.
The act or practice of cutting into or otherwise injuring living animals, especially for the purpose of scientific research.

The dissection of an animal while alive, for the purpose of making physiological investigations.

mutilate
tr.v.
To deprive of a limb or an essential part; cripple.

To disfigure by damaging irreparably: mutilate a statue.

To make imperfect by excising or altering parts.

Sat, 29 May 2004 22:24:29 GMT

Shling-ling? Dost thou know the URL for the Hot Tub? I wanna to go there again, too bad the DR is gone :(

On my head red Russian hat...

Sat, 29 May 2004 21:29:45 GMT

Headline: Josh, please find it in your pathetic life to stop stalking me. I do not appreciate the constant reading of my LJ and the calling of my sister to ask her Why I am going to Colorado. These things are my business and you need to come to terms with that fact. In short: GET HELP PSYCHO!

In Other News:
Stafford has become a recent convert in the fans of Voltaire. Yes he's sexy, yes he is brilliant, and yes it's Voltaire!!!!

Nathan is home and I gave him the hug from Ashley.

Third Street looks like its a fairground because of LucyFest. Yes that is right Mikael, Lucy has taken over the city and is heading towards world domination starting with Canada after Jamestown!!!! Also, the festival seems to be overcrowded with the boi lesbians ...hmmmm....*pets chin*

I got my haircut today so it's very short now instead of the HAIR! it was before. I like it and my woman likes it *lick*

I am now officially a polytheist. My new second god is KMFDM. These kids are genious.

~COmica:
T-dawg and T-dawg are one in the same. :)

These trousers English if you please...

Thu, 27 May 2004 21:03:11 GMT

I am just hanging out here right now at JCC with an hour and 15 minutes to spare before my English class starts.

Today was a blah day. We went outside today during photography but my camera is broken so I didn't take any pictures. Shelly had me listen to some Modest Mouse and it was fun stuff, I want to get one of their CD's. In health we started watching this movie called And the Band Played On which is a pretty koolio movie about the spread of AIDS in the 1980's. After school I went home, mowed the lawn, Dan gave me a ride to JCC and here I am!

For those of you who read my LJ and yet despise me *head spins* Daniel is going to be coming back on Monday. I would also like to apologise formally to Gina that I am sorry about that comment and I am looking forward to hanging out with you on Friday. Nathan is coming back this weekend and then leaves for Iraq.

This poem dedicated to my one and only love...

Wed, 26 May 2004 23:02:33 GMT

Searches for answers
figners slipped beneath his breath
aerosol cans ripe to rot
flutter motionless explosion
lemon scented palmolive spring.

Viable they kill themself
giving insides for defectives
splitting clitoris they watched
until almost circular in rotation
(and I couldn't help the blood)

Recanting one aorta at a time
cubicals they sang rusted harmonies
punctuated by the need for infection
and the disease for which they shook

Spoonfed his viscera
incisors clattered into lips
quivers in exploited anticipation
they strung corpses
in the street.

Enamel in discourse
never knowing their drip
and I marvel at the diameter
of your succulent spit.

I'm leaving on a jet plane....

Tue, 25 May 2004 21:19:47 GMT

Yay! David is going to Colorado June 29 - August 29 and I can't wait!!!

Thu, 20 May 2004 21:33:59 GMT

OMG I just found out the most shocking news of my life, If you know me well call me.

Oh my shoes are Japanese....

Thu, 20 May 2004 21:15:49 GMT

Your mom looks like a poofy squirel

Your mom's so fat after sex she smokes a ham.

The only difference between your mom and a washing machine is after I dump my load in a washing machine it doesn't follow me around
- www.yourmom.com
:::::::::::

Best line to say to a butch lesbian:

If you were any gayer you would be the sweat pants Hillary Clinton wears when she goes on her power walks.

- Me

Thu, 20 May 2004 20:55:24 GMT

RIght now I'm at JCC waiting for my class to start. I'd enjoy my College composition class if it wasn't for one, well actually two things. Martin Carlson and John Nelson are in my class. I went to Falconer with them and they weren't so bad but every time our instructer Marty Baum Swears, is sarcastic, or feciosous they laugh their asses off. It wouldn't be so bad if they weren't the only ones laughing but they are so its very irritating. Other than that it seems like its going to be a koolio class despite it being 3.5 hours long.

Jessy and his store(Second Skin) Were on the news! Chanel 7 was doing a report on the sex industry and how it sells *cheers for Jessy and second skin*

Last night Laurel and I went to Chatauaqua Institution for the coffee house event. Doug and Vanessa were there but I don't think they remembered Who I am. I read my poem The Problem with Newtonian Physics and everybody liked it a lot but those people never say hello to me even though I am usually the only person who I go with that reads anything. They always say hello to Laurel or Rachel, hmmm.....

Dan is coming home on Memorial Day weekend for two weeks! I can't wait to see him, he's going to being staying at Mark's while he's here and Mark is talking to me and stuff again and that's always good too.

*knocks on the computer screen*
Hello friends? call me or something I haven't talked to many of you in a long time and I gets lonely.

Thu, 20 May 2004 00:36:03 GMT

I'm worried about Stafford, he's in NYC this week to see some specialist because he has a maglignant cancer in his leg.

Fri, 14 May 2004 21:42:57 GMT

.to.touch.myself.is.rape.

Sat, 08 May 2004 17:48:24 GMT

Yesterday after school, went to the showcase of the bands. Four bands played: Failing Friday, Waiting till Daybreak, Watson, and Jimithy's Id.

Failing Friday: Christian pop punk and not that bad. Jamin did a really good job last night despite that he sounds like a homosexual squirel

Waiting Till Daybreak: Metal and sucky. The vocalist's voice kept cracking and the mics were fucked up...They covered Outkast.

Watson: HxC Punk and it was okay. Not my favorite, kinda annoying but alright all in all.

Jimithy's Id: ? and loving it. Kinda metalish, I know all the member's of the band and I didn't know Mike had such a death scream in him. Excellete kids.

I saw many people that I knew from all over including: Rob the illusive figure-skater boy, Gina in all her cellulite accussing me of giving her dirty looks, Nicole Olvey the lyinglesbian I've never met, Kevin the emotion Korean who I went to first grade with, and many others....

Just got back from my dad's. He gave me a lot Baqlawa for us to eat and is planing on making mamoul aswell.

Tonight I am going to another band show casing with Laurel and I gotta go kids~

This song quite profoundly describes all of the human interactions I've had thoughout my life...a mu

Tue, 04 May 2004 21:45:45 GMT

Le Tigre - The The Empty

The stars are getting in and out of automobiles
And we keep wondering when we're gonna feel something real
Keep waiting for a Santa that will never come
A real party not just people who're faking fun
But everything gets erased before it's even said
And all that glitters isn't gold when inside it's dead
All that glitter is not gold
All that glitter is not gold
All that glitter is not gold
All that glitter is not gold
I went to your concert and I didn't feel anything
I went to your concert and I didn't hear anything
I went to your concert and I didn't feel anything
I went to your concert and I didn't see anything
(Oh Baby) Why won't you talk to me?
(Oh Baby) You just want me empty!
(Oh Baby) You don't say anything!
(Oh Baby) Why won't you answer me?
All that glitter is not gold
All that glitter is not gold
All that glitter is not gold
All that glitter is not gold
I sat through your movie but I didn't see anything.
I went to your comedy club and didn't laugh at all.
I went to your movie and I didn't hear anything.
I went to your concert and there was nothing going on.
You don't say
You don't say
You don't say anything.......